I'm Leaving!

No seriously I am. I'm reincarnating this blog under the same name just a different direction. I'll be saving a few of my writings, but I'm starting all over.

Bye

Peace

So for a week in June I was sent to Arkansas for Singing School. That was great fun. No, seriously. I love singing and by the reception and feedback I got apparently I'm very good at it. I was even given a solo in the musical. But we won't rant on about that now I must remain humble therefore I retreat and digress.

The thing that baffled me there was the sense of peace I felt. My mind is constantly working on projects and worrying about other people and other things and such. 99.999999999993% of the time I'm stressed about something and then I step onto this campsite and after the first night it was like someone turned off half my brain. and every worry, stress, fear passed away and I was left with a sense of numbing peace for the whole week. And it was strange, but nice, but strange...I liked it. I really liked it. I thought of my fears and worries but they didn't affect me. the only thing that saddened me was the fact that I knew that when I got home it would all return.

But I'll always have that week in my memory.

Peace. Its a gift, fleeting and precious.

Peace. Out.

^_^

Wow I Haven't Done This In Awhile...

Well, its true. I haven't. What have I really interesting to say?

I guess I'll give you a low down of all that's been happening.

I graduated High School with honors and have been accepted into the Art Institute of San Antonio. Yay! I'm going to art school for Film!

I really have no creative brain wave right now so I'm going to go for now..

Peace out

Anxiety

Songs: Snow White Queen and Tourniquet by Evanescence

Anxiety is a cruel thing. Once you think you have it under control it attacks fiercer and harder than ever before. It drives you crazy; you think you’ve gone mad. I hate it with a passion! Why won’t it leave you alone? Why must it strike you down again? Why must it separate you from the world, from God? You feel like you would die from the pain and sometimes it seems like a relief. But you fear that relief. Anxiety makes no sense! You fear everything, things you never would have feared terrify you. Nothing makes sense anymore and you trust nothing, you do not trust yourself. Anxiety is a terrible, terrible thing. When will I be cured?

Real

The mind plays tricks on you.

The mind is a powerful thing. You think you remember something but then you don't. Something seems real but isn't. You see things but yet you don't. You feel things but then again you don't. You start to wonder if you aren't real yourself. How do you know if you're real? Real. Its a term used many ways. Real: actually existing as a thing or occurring in fact; not imagined or supposed.

I have often heard people say about others, "They're real." What makes them real? Are we real, really? That depends on you. Are you real?

These thoughts are half finished. These queries are merely unanswered questions. You may think I am crazy. Am I? Am I really crazy? Maybe. Really maybe.

I have not updated this blog in a long time have I?

Well usually its because I just don't have anything to say. I don't really have anything else to say except that I miss the 90's.

Right. Just wanted to make sure you all did not forget I was here or that I had forgotten my blog. I have not. I hope you have not forgotten me.

Goodbye!

(I apologize for the clipped formal tone that I usually do not have, but that's the mood I'm in right now. Sorry)

Blessed Hour of Prayer

I will never ever doubt the power of prayer.
This past week I have been in lethal danger of failing Physics. If I had failed I would have been barred from Theatre, BPA State, UIL Lit-Crit, Winter Guard Crew, UIL Band, and FFA. My school life would be over.
But I prayed constantly that I would pass even with a 70 and - God be praised!- I did!!!! I will be going to my competitions and I will never let my grades slip again. I've learned that if you put your faith in God and pray without ceasing God will help you and grant your wish. But you have to trust Him and sometimes that's the hardest thing to do, to put your trust and hope and faith in someone, especially someone you can't see. But Paul said in the Bible "we live by faith not by sight" Just because we cannot see God does not mean we do not have faith in Him. It is very hard sometimes and we mortals will stumble but we must try and beg the wisdom to be wise from God so we may be good Christians and live faithfully. Jamie Sullivan from A Walk to Remember movie says about God and faith, "Its like the wind I can't feel it but i know its there..." God gives signs everywhere that He is here with us and always with us.

On A Lighter Note:
I will always always love The Addams Family. They are amazing! I want to live with them. I want Morticia's dress and Wedsnday's attitude. Wednsday is my favortie character. Then there is Grandma. She is hillarious! And Gomez and Pugsley and Fester and Lurch!!!! Cosuin It...they are just amazing gothic and great!

Ciao!